October 30, 2007
i.hate.this.
People around here just don't seem to care, do they?I wish they would, even just for once, care for other important things than money.
I wish they would ask other questions other than, "O, may pera ka?"
I wish they would try to appreciate other things more.
They shouldn't wonder why I don't like it here; why I give importance to my friends more; why I don't know how to approach them; why I don't like bringing things up to them. Becase all they will say to me would be about money. They don't ask about other things. Nothing else matters. Ayeen scribbled her way at7:36 PM
October 29, 2007
Erap's pardon
I think GMA just made a big mistake giving Erap a pardon. It's just completely bull. How can she give pardon to someone who has committed something grave against the country, against the Filipino people?I was happy when Erap was convicted to 40 years imprisonment a few months ago and now what? GMA gives Erap pardon and he's finally out of prison. Give me a break, he stole millions of peso from our country and he gets bailed out just like that? Ah, our country has lost hope.
I, for a long time, believed that there was still hope for this country and that idea has been taken out of me. Who am I kidding? Politics is so dirty and we won't get anywhere with people in the government doing some "magic."
Oh I don't know. I wish that justice be served to the Filipino people and for Erap as well. We all know what he did and all the effort that have been put into this case just to put a criminal in jail have been in vain.
Birthday problems
Still don't know what to do...
This is hopeless...
I.need.help. Ayeen scribbled her way at7:24 PM
October 21, 2007
sem break!
Sem break's here at last! Hooray!!!I can finally take a break after that gruelling first sem. Finally. Natapos ko ang madugong FIL20 at naka kuha pa ng dos. Medyo nakaka disappoint kasi I know I could have done better. Oh well, okay na yun kaysa naman tres lang. Naks, rationalization ito ayon nga sa psych. Hehe And speaking of psych, I got a 1.0! Yay! It compensated for what I got in FIL20. Sana sa ibang subjects din mataas ako.
Hmm...I've got one problem though. Wala akong magawa sa bahay. Yun ang problema ko. Wala akong magawa. I need things to do. I want to go out. Believe it or not, I want to go back to LB. I miss hanging out with people I hang out with. I miss the late night outs doing....nothing. Yeah. But still, at least I had places to go to even if we just walked and sat and ate.
Anyway, I'm going back to LB tomorrow to get some of my class cards. I hope I did well. I want to be a college scholar. Di ko na papangarapin mag US. Hello? Ok ka lang? Haha Halimaw lang nakaka US. But I need to kick some ass the next sem and the next and the next until I graduate (which I hope to do on time).
Speaking of acads stuff, I still have incomplete units for next sem. Darn it. I need 3 more. Well, at least 3 more but I want 6 more units. I need 2 more subjects to get 6 more units and I don't freaking know how I could manage to get enlisted in Eng2 and Spcm1 which I freaking need. NEED. N-E-E-D. If I don't get those two, how am I supposed to have majors for the next semesters? They're my pre-reqs. This is so shitty.
Stuff
Some things just never go away, do they? There are things you try so hard to repress you squeeze them so hard, throw them at the very back of your mind, lock them and hope your freaking brain doesn't remind you of them. And then lo and behold, your ears and eyes try to talk your brain out of it and betrays you -- unlocking the door you've been trying so hard to ignore. The thing which already made it through the very back of your mind suddenly comes back, 1000 times magnified, like you were looking through an electron microscope, and then you see it again -- vivid, clear. But here's the thing, it's either you look at it or you don't. You don't have to look at it the moment it comes in front of you. You can close your eyes and take a deep breath. I believe that there is a right time to look at it again-- when everything is okay; when you can handle the rush; when you know you can face it once more without having to feel regret or anything for that matter; when you know you can look at it and just smile.
You just have to accept that our brains are wired to remember things and that there are things you will never forget. You need to be ready to face these things because they are a part of you, whether you like it or you don't. Ayeen scribbled her way at7:55 PM
